Saturday, May 16, 2009

Where am I?

One Sad Panda 
Just like me


Hello everybody.
I know.. Long time, no see.

I have been having a hard lately and haven't been in the mood to blog.
For whatever reason, my depression has decided to mess with my mind.
And I hate when that happens.
Do I try new medications, exercise more.... shoot myself...
So many choices... so little time.

Just in case you were wondering,  I will try more exercise and medications first.


My life just seemed to be falling down all around me and I couldn't do anything to stop it.
All I could do was sit and watch everything go to hell.

Well now I am trying to get back to whatever normal is.
Trying to figure out what my goals are and how to reach them.

What do I really want?
Are my goals attainable?
Or am I just fooling myself?

Will I be able to reach my weight goals? 
(Did I mention that I fired my trainer??)

Do I truly want to go back to school and finish up my degree in the MBA program?
Or do I go back to school and do what I think I really want to do? 
Do I go back and get a degree in fine art photography?
Do I go into music?    ....... most likely not.... But I do love playing.

Maybe I should rename this The Bitch of Losing... And Gaining... 
Gaining a clue that is.

So here we go again.
Please stick around for the ride.
It should at least be interesting.